Blessings in time of triggers...

#truth
One of the things I have learned on this conscious spiritual journey is, every time i feel triggered is because there is something that needs to be worked on.It wasn't always like this, i used to get mad at people and situations as a way of looking for a reason or someone to blame for things i didn't have "the balls" to take responsibility.
We try to blame the government,
We try to blame our family
We try to blame our job
We try to blame the cashier at the grocery store
or even the dog that didn't stop barking lol
Anyways, we are pretty creative beings!!
We all have being there at some point and that's OK, it's a human setting, checked!
I have learned this the hard, or no so easy way…
First things first, when I hired one of my first spiritual coaches and I have had many, I wasn’t aware that I was paying that person to trigger me and push me to face all the ghosts I had inside, from the feelings of abandonment to the fact that I was so afraid to love and be loved.
I remember in one of the sessions while leaving, I started to mumble to myself, “Yeah right, she knows nothing, who does she thinks she is?” just because at that moment a can of worms had been opened and I didn’t know how to deal with, aka, inner-child issues that come up to the surface.
Years later, I realized that by paying her and being in a session I was giving her permission to use her experience, to channel, to use whatever tools she had under her sleeves in order to help me.
Same can happen when you ask for help, you must be open to how you going to receive, release the control and take in. The help may not come the way you have anticipating or it is expecting. In fact, sometimes we miss opportunities because it is not the way we have imagined, when it comes to us.
Between coaching, therapy and inner work, I was able to process a lot and I am still digging and removing the levels of it. I keep asking those for help and open to receive what the feedback will be. If you think I no longer get triggered, you would be wrong, I certainly do, then I dig why, I look within, and I take responsibility for the way I am feeling.
Is the process always pretty? Many would say no, but in the mist of anger I also have learned to appreciate the moments that my shadow side takes over. Now, I would say thank you for all of those who has been on my way, so the lessons can be learned and I can claim one more piece of who I am.

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