That was me...over 13 years ago!!
For the last 12 days I have been in an intense body and mind cleanse. It’s amazing how much of an impact being aware of everything happening in your body and have all the basic 5 senses working up to the fullest, do to you as a human and spiritual being.
I haven’t eaten red meat (and everything in between, aka bacon, pork, deli meat…) for over 4 years now, I don’t miss it and I have no desire for it when someone eats it in front of me, but yesterday an interesting situation happened. As I passed by a fast food chain, I remember the times when I used to go there for “food” and I can remember some of the reasons why I did it…
I wasn’t committed to myself enough,
I didn’t love myself enough,
I didn’t respect myself enough,
And, I was also trying to mask my own feeling by eating…
so, I MADE POOR CHOICES!
The sad part about it is that for the most part we are not usually aware of it…
And, let me tell you… that went along with EVERYTHING in my life! Career, relationships, food, what I was watching, listening to, you name it! I literally let the “crap” come in, I had no boundaries whatsoever, I didn’t even know what that meant to be honest, I had no clue, I was just looking for acceptance, to be loved, to fit in. I was looking for happiness outside of myself, I was transferring the responsibility to others…
Until I started taking responsibilities for who I was and what I wanted to become I couldn’t move forward. From then to now, I am grateful as, to name some of the things I have accomplished,
I have become aware of,
Empowered to make smart and healthy choices,
I deeply love myself and have develop healthy boundaries,
I was able to kick the victim mode out and a LOT MORE!!!
Loving myself, become empowered and leaning Ayurveda not only gifted me the connection with within, but introduced me to one of the most AMAZING people in the planet: myself!!