Today I went to get a haircut. Having a not so good experience last time, I went back, without thinking twice to the person I have cut my hair with for the past decade.
Between a wash and a sit on her chair she mentioned that she used to watch my videos every morning in Facebook and my answer was: “yeah” I have the intention to go back to that, too much going on right now…As my shame took over and I saw myself feeling small on her chair…this feeling didn’t last too long thou, I started to think about something else…
Can you imagine if one day I went to her saloon and it has been closed, no explanation, just closed all together, how would that make me feel? The feeling turned into guilty as many people have approach me in the past and told me that they also, used to watch my videos and they love it!! I guess I had no idea I was making some impact in other people lives.
Then, going further with my thoughts, I panicked with the possibility that what if she wasn’t there to have my hair fixed last time? It took years to admit to myself that she was the person who I had a hair love affair with, I love her work and that’s it! I don’t know if someone out there can do the same or similar work as her, the truth is, I haven’t found that person yet, so every time I cheated it was not a rewarding experience.
Anyways, I come to apologize to all of you, I just didn’t know how to manager my energy/self-care properly, so I got drained and had to step away from everything. Now, as I am using this time to reset and focus on myself, soon I will be able to share myself again as raw, simple and uniquely as I can be.
I am also grateful for my haircut and for the angels that made the experience amazingly done!!
Thank you thank you thank you!!
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