Today I went to get a haircut. Having a not so good experience last time I went back, without thinking twice to the person I have cut my hair with for the past decade.
Between a wash and a sit on her chair she mentioned that she used to watch my videos every morning in Facebook and my answer was: “yeah” I have the intention to go back to that, too much going on right now…As my shame took over and I saw myself feeling small on her chair…this feeling didn’t last too long thou, I started to think about something else…
Can you imagine if one day I went to her saloon and it has been closed, no explanation, just closed all together, how would that make me feel? The feeling turned into guilty as many people have approach me in the past and told me that they also, used to watch my videos and they love it!! I guess I had no idea I was making some impact in other people lives.
Then, going further with my thoughts, I panicked with the possibility that what if she wasn’t there to have my hair fixed last time? It took years to admit to myself that she was the person who I had a hair love affair with, I love her work and that’s it! I don’t know if someone out there can do the same or similar work as her, the truth is, I haven’t found that person yet, so every time I cheated it was not a rewarding experience.
Anyways, I come to apologize to all of you, I just didn’t know how to manager my energy/self-care properly, so I got drained and had to step away from everything. Now, as I am using this time to reset and focus on myself, soon I will be able to share myself again as raw, simple and uniquely as I can be.
I am also grateful for my haircut and for the angels that made the experience amazingly done!!
Thank you thank you thank you!!
As I am going through some very emotional time and some sort of physical response to it, last night I prayed as I haven't in a very long time...i felt myself in such despair and sadness for no reason that I asked my Angels and Guides to give me a sign that ALL of this I have learned and the path I have been through is the right one, that everything is into place, where it's suppose to be for everyone involved highest and best. I felt sleep crying and praying that I was being supported.
At 5 am I opened my eyes to this joyful, very tall and very calm energy old man standing by my bedroom door. I smiled at him and mentally said, you are here to know I am being supported. He smiled back as a way of confirming what I was "saying". I felt supported and was able to surrender.
Know that everytime you ask and fiercely pray you are and will be heard...
I not only had an answer that I am manifesting what I want way faster than I can even imagine but also received a sign that I am being supported in every step forward I take...
thank you thank you thank you...
Personal growth is like being in an open Sea in New England weather, where sometimes the water is calm, the day is sunny and all of sudden there is a storm coming. As I have been doing a lot of work in myself, and I mean a LOT, it was recently, brought to my attention that I still have some mileage to add to my inner child work, so as I have been getting in touch with her, I will dedicate this post to her today and I want to let her know how much love I have for her…
Ps: some of these wounds were there not because my family was mean to me or didn’t love me, I was placed in the perfect family, perfect parents to be in the perfect lessons. She had a perception of a situation that didn’t exist, her wounds and hurt were based on her own experiences.
Dear “Betinha” (This was a sweet name that my dad used to call me by),
I want to let you know that I love you,
Everything that you ever wanted is right here, in front of you, I want to let you know that I am here for you,
It’s ok to get closer,
I see you, I can see you…you have such beautiful hair, it’s safe to get closer, no one will ever hurt you again, your heart is safe with me,
Come closer…it’s ok to look up, you have amazing eyes
Please stop hiding, I am here for you
I can’t wait to hug you, comb your hair, tuck you into bed, read stories for you, play with you at the park, do some coloring, drawing, painting and anything fun you may wish to do,
It’s ok to get closer
Thank you, for let me touch your hands, I will never let you go again...
You are safe, you are safe
I love you!
This morning when I was coming to work, I noticed that the road I have driven along the week is not only in construction mode, but today they have done a substantial portion of it in one side and the other one still must be done at some point. The side that has been done is smooth, not uneven and makes your ride much enjoyable, it’s almost like you are sliding along, really going with the flow. Today, even though I was driving on the undone side, my ride was pleasurable, probably because I had a chanting playing that really got me in such great mood, despite the people who gets mad when you are not really driving as fast as they would like. I kept driving on the “undone” side all along.
It occurred to me that I could have chosen to change over to the smooth side, at that point it really didn’t matter, I was going to get to my destination either side of the road I had decided to drive on, but yes, I had the option to move over to the better side. The truth is, in life, we have the power of choice ALL the time!
We choose what we will wear
We choose what we will eat
We choose how to feel
We choose where and to who we will give our energy to
We choose if we will get up and have an amazing day
And, many many choices!
What a powerful thing to have!
And beyond that is by what you choose you will be able to enjoy or dislike the journey, the way you CHOOSE how you will feel along the way has a significant impact on yourself!
Choose what makes you feel good, the power of choice is ALWAYS Into your hands!
Last night as I set down with someone to talk about my business and what I do, came into play that I am debating to keep the word “healings” in my business name or do I change to “Coaching’s” because it’s the “most acceptable” one, marketing wise? We all know that the service sold here is not more or less, but healings, it can be as a session on the table or a “spoken session, at the end the healings process is what takes place, it’s the “product” been sold…
This whole thing reported me to something else. When the word “healer” comes into your mind what do you think? A doctor and someone physically sick? Well, that’s what most of us may think…When I first started Energy medicine, the “school for healers” I thought I would learn ALL about chakras, the energy centers, how to heal others and at the end open my very own business. I would be the MASTER healer! I did learn all those things and way more than I expected, but little I knew that I was the very first one in line who needed to go through a deep and ongoing healing process. And, that was exactly what happened!
Along the way I have learner about a so called “healer archetype”, I panicked, of course, what do you mean I can heal people? As time passed I never knew that before I even started to open myself up to this archetype I had to face it first and oh boy I did, in a very humanely, ego way!
Being in the city of lights, where you so fall in love including with a leave falling from the tree, there I was, in Paris, in March of 2018, learning about how claim the full me! I just wasn’t aware that I hadn’t not claimed the one above…remember? Yes, the healer archetype… She was beautifully presented to me…
And, the big lesson came through this girl, in the picture below. When I first saw her inside an Italian restaurant as our group was waiting to meet with everyone else, I couldn’t container my ego instantly judging her beautiful and wide eyes, smile and charming energy. I felt so triggered, it was crazy! My angel and devil wouldn’t shut up. As the minutes seemed like an eternity, she started talking about herself, she said loud and clear! I’m a healer! God, couldn’t she have punched me in some other place other than the stomach? Then, I suddenly jumped in her face, grabbed her hair as a mad woman!!
Yeah! That scene happened only in my mind…in instead of letting the ego take over, I opened myself up, told her and the whole table the way I was feeling, and my heart instantly opened to this Amazing, Incredible and most compassionate girl, who helped me to claim one piece of myself regards my healer.
She was the perfect mirror!!!
Jessa, I just want to tell you one more time, how much of an impact you have made in my life not only at that night, but also for sharing yourself fully with us into the workshop and just for being who you are! You are Amazing!!
Thank you, thank you thank you Universe for the lesson!
When I look at this picture, it brings a smile into my face, because I not only think I am beautiful, happy and stunning, but it also brings great and ever lasting memories I had, and no one, can take it away from me.
Many times, people who don’t know me, has asked my marital status and when I say I am divorced they usually say “I am so sorry to hear…”my response is to stay quiet, because I very much respect people’s opinion, but for the most part, their opinion is to think that divorce is a negative situation, which yes, it can be, many people go through “not so wanted happy times”, but I want to say that I had a very different experience.
I, personally, have a different opinion, as I have a perspective that if a “relationship”, either romantic, friendship or anything between is not working for one of them, it needs to be talked through, where both must to feel happy to be able to keep going with it or find a way which both will be ok with it. For my ex-husband and myself, divorce was the answer. Today, as we are friends, we can see that it has not only improved ourselves even further, but it has allowed us to support and love each other in a completely different and deeper level.
I disagree my marriage didn’t work. IT DID WORK! For all the lessons, great memories and times we shared together as a couple. I am extremely grateful to have learned from him in many amazing ways, not to mention the trivial things that every so often I report myself back to those times and I become even more grateful to have had him into my life. The fact the we are no longer together, doesn’t mean I think he is not a great guy or the marriage material, he so is, he is a gentleman and had always been there in many difficult and happy times.
I wouldn’t have become who I am today if he hasn’t been with me in this journey, my heart says that he has been one of my spiritual contracts. One more reason why it has worked…
I also have learned that love goes way beyond the physical aspect of “having” someone living with you “forever”. Give yourself to someone at any given moment, fully present (spiritual, emotional and physical), is one of the biggest love indications you can give someone, anything after is uncertain because we don’t know the day of tomorrow.
For me, tomorrow has come and here I am, being grateful for a time when the present was just a glimpse of my sense of being present…
That was me...over 13 years ago!!
For the last 12 days I have been in an intense body and mind cleanse. It’s amazing how much of an impact being aware of everything happening in your body and have all the basic 5 senses working up to the fullest, do to you as a human and spiritual being.
I haven’t eaten red meat (and everything in between, aka bacon, pork, deli meat…) for over 4 years now, I don’t miss it and I have no desire for it when someone eats it in front of me, but yesterday an interesting situation happened. As I passed by a fast food chain, I remember the times when I used to go there for “food” and I can remember some of the reasons why I did it…
I wasn’t committed to myself enough,
I didn’t love myself enough,
I didn’t respect myself enough,
And, I was also trying to mask my own feeling by eating…
so, I MADE POOR CHOICES!
The sad part about it is that for the most part we are not usually aware of it…
And, let me tell you… that went along with EVERYTHING in my life! Career, relationships, food, what I was watching, listening to, you name it! I literally let the “crap” come in, I had no boundaries whatsoever, I didn’t even know what that meant to be honest, I had no clue, I was just looking for acceptance, to be loved, to fit in. I was looking for happiness outside of myself, I was transferring the responsibility to others…
Until I started taking responsibilities for who I was and what I wanted to become I couldn’t move forward. From then to now, I am grateful as, to name some of the things I have accomplished,
I have become aware of,
Empowered to make smart and healthy choices,
I deeply love myself and have develop healthy boundaries,
I was able to kick the victim mode out and a LOT MORE!!!
Loving myself, become empowered and leaning Ayurveda not only gifted me the connection with within, but introduced me to one of the most AMAZING people in the planet: myself!!
“You are good at it, because you have been there, you know exactly how it feels like”. These words were words that came out from my coach in our last call and I have to say that the Universe has put me in the time and place for me to bloom and became the amazing, awesome, light being that I am, so I can help others to do the same, effortlessly…
How a lost over 50 pounds
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